My journey of awakening began on my 23rd birthday, April 1, 2016, in Puerto Rico, but the seeds were planted much earlier. The death of my Aunt Lisa, just days before my birthday, was the spark that forced me to confront the deep loss I’d felt since the passing of my maternal grandmother, just before my 10th birthday in March 2003. Both women, at 49 years old, left this world too soon, and their spirits became my teachers, guiding me through a deep, transformative shift. 

I started this journey as an atheist—a fierce rebel with a big “FU” to God and anything that resembled faith. I had no belief in anything, and that emptiness turned me into a shell of myself. I was consumed by rage, anger, and self-infliction. I was alive on the outside, but dead on the inside. I couldn’t find peace, and so I lashed out, numb to the world around me. 

In the summer of 2017, something shifted. I found prayer again, but this time, it wasn’t to some higher deity I couldn’t connect with. I turned to the things that truly resonated with me: my ancestors and the earth itself—Mother Gaia. It was through nature and ancestral wisdom that I began to heal. Then, in October 2018, I packed my bags, left everything behind in Houston, and headed to Atlanta. I thought I was leaving the energy I had birthed, “Shun Paris,” behind, but little did I know, I was carrying it with me. 

That move turned into another rebirth. I found myself diving deeper into the unknown—doing inner child work, building my altar, meditating, and tapping into parts of me I had long buried. I began to realize that the darkness I had rejected for so long was not my enemy—it was my power. In 2019, I discovered a powerful collection of books by Rev. Cain—The Unholy Bible, Book of Hymns, and Book of Kings—that helped me reclaim my darkest parts. These books didn’t just comfort me; they empowered me to embrace my full, unapologetic self. 

But I was still searching for something. That something was the Divine Feminine. I didn’t know it at the time, but the universe had already begun leading me there. That’s when I found You Are a Goddess by Sophie Bashford. The realization hit me like lightning: This journey wasn’t just about embracing my darkness, it was about returning to the mothers, the Goddesses, and connecting with the divine power I was always meant to embody. 

But the journey wasn’t without its struggles. I had been unconsciously invoking and misusing my own sexual energy. I had been working with Marilyn Monroe and Aphrodite, tapping into their seductive powers, but something still didn’t feel whole. I was still running from my roots—until I wasn’t. 

One day, my journey with my own hair, something I had never truly embraced, shifted everything. Through that connection, I rediscovered my roots and the wisdom of my ancestors. I found Orisas, Goddesses and Voodoo Queens by Lilith Dorsey, and that book led me back to Houston, pregnant, carrying the power of all I had learned and all I was becoming. 

By 2020, I was knee-deep in connecting with my ancestors, performing sacred rituals, and embracing the energy of African deities. My soul was hungry for more, and that hunger led me to the Sweet Love Sanctuary in 2021. It was there that I spent an entire season doing shadow work, stripping away old layers and confronting the deepest parts of myself. I emerged from that work as Goddess La Porscha, the Goddess of Invocation. It was also at the Sanctuary that I received my hand in Ifa, stepping into my true spiritual power. 

By 2023, I had fully embraced my identity as an Orisa Practitioner, a proud child of Yemoja and Ogun. I had finally come home to myself, understanding that this journey was never just about me—it was about the divine forces that move through me and the ancestors that guide me. 

Alongside my spiritual practice, I birthed Sugar Ann Spice, a sensual performer, embracing eroticism as a sacred art. Through sensual movement, I awaken and arouse the energy of seduction, telling stories that connect the body, mind, and spirit. I weave together dance, ritual, erotica, and theatre to create experiences that captivate, empower, and transform. 

Every step of my journey has been a dance—a dance between light and dark, between the sacred and the profane. This is my path, and I invite you to walk it with me.